December I remember

December is a month I struggle within. It's a time I commit to my mat more, to the Earth more, to my family tradition more.

We don't celebrate Christmas. 

{We focus on the New Year coming in. 🎉🎊🎈🎈🎊🎉}

December this year, brings about a new depth to my focus as I gear up to say farewell, to some very special people, new in my life. 

All my yogis for one ... It's been really inspiring to meet & journey with every single one of you.. Namaste on & off the mat. 

One particular goddess/mama/guru/soul Sistah that has become my rock, my families favourite past time... Leaving such hearts brings an inner sense of the power of energy and the trust of spirit. 

The entire yoga community, health & wellbeing, foodie & spiritually aware tribe here in Townsville is another light left to shine in my heart. You're all one powerful and determined bunch. There will be no end to your goodness. 

A particular Kombucha queen that invited me to tea & stole my heart. 

I will miss your open smile and honest ways...success is in your wings because you know how to bring good things. Sing lady K, SING x 

One Defense community mama that infected me with her spunk & spirit the moment I met her. Instantly shifting my ideals of the life we had signed up for. You are a universal send that I can never fully thank. 

When I moved here I had two friends already comfortably living here, whom guided and constantly reassured (blessed) me weekly. I am going to ache to see your face beautiful Miss A! Our connection is set in stone, bone & organically grown. 

 & The Forde bunch..what can I say..not enough time!! Intimacy as we get older is such a beautiful thing. 

Then, a family so grand in gesture and warm in essence, so striving and so true...the Marshalls' you are so gorgeous & I will miss the spontaneous meets & heartfelt fun. 

We know we will see you again ;) 

I could go on, to include Sundalah House tribe, Ottos, Kids in Harmony 

but I just may never stop. Touched to say the least by my brief time here in the Ville. 

So, December...it hasn't always been a rough month for me. My sister left Earth Side when I was 18. She chose to leave. My confusion made me choose to forget her. I struggled for many years to bring her to my mind.

Her birthday is in early December. So after a while, one December I realised I had to forgive her. After all, her choice to smile, laugh, cry, love, spend money, quit a job, sit with our dying mother, detest our step father, drive fast, live or die...is ALL HERS. 

20 years ago her struggle with inner demons was hers. 

This is what I wrote 15yrs ago

DECEMBER I REMEMBER 

HER BIRTHDAY CURLS 

HIDING THE EXPRESSION 

OF ALMOST DEPRESSION..

MY GIFT WASN'T RIGHT

DINNER WITH FRIENDS

WHOM I'D NEVER SEEN

THE WORLD SEEMED SO GROWN UP

DECEMBER I REMEMBER

DRUGS BLURRING 

THAT YOU'RE NOT THERE

AVOIDING THE DEPRESSION

ANOTHER SATURDAY NIGHT

TURNS INTO SUNDAY AFTERNOON

ANOTHER SOUP FED NIGHT

TUESDAY'S SICK WITHIN

DECEMBER I REMEMBER

SEEING YOU

AS THOSE LINES KICKED IN

FELT A MILLION MILES AHEAD

YOU WERE JUST BESIDE ME

LINKING ME IN YOUR ARM

INTRODUCING ME

DECEMBER I REMEMBER

THAT WE COULD HAVE BEEN CLOSE

LIKE THE DAYS WHEN OUR DREAMS

MADE US TALK IN OUR SLEEP

THE BUS MADE US FIGHT

THE ANIMALS MADE US LAUGH

OUR BOYFRIENDS GOT US INTO TROUBLE

DECEMBER 

I REMEMBER

SOME OF THE THINGS I TRIED TO FORGET

 

So in honour of my Sagittarius friends & family, 

my new found friends, 

my friends who may remember 

~ my heart will never forget 

~ my love will never regret 

The balance of reality is often hidden in the darkness. Through kindness you shall reveal the depth of need. Stay tuned in to everyone around you. Known, unknown, loved or feared .... in a moment you could save a life, even if only for a moment. 

           

Namaste